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more to come.

RL news

i got laid off.

sucks to be me.

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Am I just a contrary soul or do other people feel compelled not to do something just because others desire it of them? Maybe my huge fear of commitment plays a key role in how I treat people who pressure me to do things.

So I left Deadly, as my previous post states. People seem to think it is because I was pissed off. Well initially I was sort of tweaked but mostly it was frustration with how things are done. It was a case of he said she said an no one seemed to know what was going on. This is not fun for me. In fact among the top 5 things to annoy me that is probably number two or three. On top of that it really felt as if I were the only person doing any serious research into how to achieve the look and feel the SIM owner wanted. Another of my pet peeves. If you are part of a group project, then you need to be part of the group, not rely on one person to do the research, the building, the texture work, the ass kissing and the implementation all by themselves.

A couple of days ago one of the other SIM managers let me know that the SIM was being leveled and that I would have complete building control. Ok, great, keen cool. NOT WHAT I WANTED. Also, that I had to tell them by Thursday (today) if I was going to do it or not. Hello! I told them all that I was at worst not coming back and at best taking a long sabbatical. What part of that doesn’t make sense? I mean I know that SL operates on dog years so a day is really like six weeks, but give me a break. Three days to a week not in the family fold does not a vacation make. Last night one of the other SIM managers tells me that the rebuild will be done by the time I show up again but that it won’t be as well done as if I did it. I call bullshit on that guilt trip. Even if it wasn’t meant to be a guilt trip, that’s a rotten thing to tell someone who has made their feelings clear on the project/subject. If a half dozen people cannot do the research and the building work that I did then there is something seriously wrong.

I am really frustrated with SL right now I s’pose. Or better to say I am frustrated with some of the people. I think I am going to stop being involved in outside projects for a while and just work on adding content to my store. I don’t do even remotely enough marketing for that anyway.

no Deadly no More

I won’t be found in Deadly anymore.  Too much drama and too much bullshite.  It is like wading through 3ft of mud to get anything done.  I regret becoming involved the way I did.  Don’t get me wrong I have nothing against any of the people and in fact admire several of them.  I just don’t think it is a place I need to be any longer.

Not much.

“. . . like butter spread over too much bread.”

Do you ever get the feeling that you are spread too thin in SL? I am devoting as much time as possible to finishing the DogWood Club textures this weekend. I lost a lot of focus with some SIM upheaval in Deadly and being sick. Yesterday was nightmare of last minute problems solving in the RL job causing mondo headache and general mopey behavior due to being brain dead.

I ended up bickering with a friend because neither one of us was all that emotionally secure. Well not quite bickering. I up and logged out so I could go get food, keep my blood sugar up and avoid saying something I shouldn’t due to crankiness induced by hypoglycemia. That didn’t go over well either but I just didn’t have the energy for much else.

The only thing I really don’t like about SL is that sometimes you just want to really hug someone and you can’t. I mean you can have your avatars embrace and all but the lack of physicality with a dear friend can really blow space goats sometimes. Certain SL relationships have taken a major decline due to RL emo issues and that’s ok I think.

Found yet another person selling a wall full of art that wasn’t theirs to sell last night. I just don’t get that. All it takes is one of those artists or entities to prove willful infringement of a copyright and show that the infringer made a profit of some kind and that lame brain can be in debt up to $200k in the blink of an eye.

So not a lot in this post, maybe more later.